What would you do if you know that someone you love and care will fall into a deep shit and be devastated? Just stay silent? Do nothing? You can ignore it and push them into it deeper whole? Yeah, that might be the best. But only applied to person that has nothing to do with you and you don't care.

I'm trying to understand and feel. But I can't. From any sides I can't. Because I know what happen and what is the real situation, it's very difficult for me to give support. Maybe I'm trying to push her to use my thoughts, my logic. But we are two different person, person with their own mind and feelings and completely have different view.

This story is about Miss A who is currently 'in love' with a 65 years old and got a cancer. Miss A is feeling badly in love with him. Except me and her mom, none knows the truth. I kept forgeting that she is not me. If it comes to me, I can think logically and use my brain and see the reality. Yes, in love. that's why there a saying 'love is blind'. It does happen. I've been there and yes, reality bites and denial all the time.
I'm tired. Only tries to do my best to keep my love ones falling. Tired to give advises but only makes me sad in the end.

I already kept silent and didn't ask Miss A about him because I didn't want to give comment. Comments that I didn't feel right to give. It will be different if situation are different and the man is different. I do want to see her happy and in love. But not like this. She will be in love for short time and tears for a long time. I will always be there for her, yes indeed. but if she thinks that i'm too close and cannot understand here and do not support her, I'll withdrawn.

Miss A is the type of person who can easily falling in love unconditionaly. In the end, she will end up with tears and feeling very crushed and leap back into the worse situation before she started. I can see that already, but she cannot. Or she can but she refused to see. All she can think and feel is now and today. Love makes her like that. I'm like that also. But I can easily stand up and back on to my feet. I don't know about her. Wrong, I know, but only she knows what best for her.

She said that others care more for her than her closest ones. And do others knows what is exactly happens and going on or what is the real situation? Others of course cares for her because all they know is that she's in love and be loved and she is happy.

It was hard for me also to keep silent from others and keep ot for myself. I cannot talk to others about her situation and tried to give her the best advise. It was hard. But once again, i failed and now she's angry and refuse to talk to me. Maybe I pushed her too much and forgive me for being too care and not supporting her.

I can only silent and watch now. Keep quiet and see and be there for here when it comes. The ball is on her hand now. There's nothing else I can do. Be save dearest one. I'm sorry I cannot help you.