It's All About Letting Go

Have to let go of the past to embrace the future. I thot I did and I hope I already have. No more outstanding. Is there anything that still left behind? Maybe. Maybe because of what happened in the past, I'm afraid to move forward. Without I realise it.

At the moment for example, I'm afraid to tell my parents about my future plans with him. So many things that makes me keep silent from them. Will they approve my choice this time or will they repeat their concept of 'happiness" again? Dunno. Whatever it is, i fear it already.

I'm gathering my courages to talk to them, to tell them our situation. Will they open hearted let me choose my path? Will they realised that their baby girl is a grown up woman? A woman with her own mind of thinking? I dunno, still fear that they might not.

Will I have the courage to tell them that he wants to marry me eventho we only met for 1 week? Will I have the courage to tell them that we cannot give them their dream wedding that they want for their baby girl? Will I have the courage to tell them that I will fly away from here once we are marry? So many courages I need to gather before telling them. I'm afraid of their reactions.

This is the past that I must let go and move on if I want to find my happiness. If I can through it, there will be light in the end of my journey. Please help me and make me brave. Braveness, courages, I need it badly now.

WoW

I'm in love and it's a very wonderful feeling. Everyday I feel it and I missing him so much. The love and missing feeling giving me chestpain and it hurts. Hurts because I cannot be together with him (yet). I wish, I hope, I dream that we will be together. Don't want to hope too high. Just want to live my live as it is now without thinking hard on how, when, where or what. Que sera sera.. Just follow my heart and continue....

Love is wonderful if we are really into it. But love can be tearful also if we are too into it. Darth, please do love me with all your heart like you always say.